{"id":4491,"date":"2016-01-13T14:44:14","date_gmt":"2016-01-13T12:44:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/dogaaskina.local\/?p=4491"},"modified":"2016-01-13T14:44:14","modified_gmt":"2016-01-13T12:44:14","slug":"ana","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/ana\/","title":{"rendered":"Ana"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00a0\"IMG_6324\"<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7inde da\u011f olanlara.<\/em><\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131z y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n ayd\u0131nlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yeni ay gecesinde, Koca Me\u015fe tepesinin yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 c\u0131l\u0131z bir beyaz \u0131\u015f\u0131k bozdu. Belli belirsiz ayd\u0131nlanan evin i\u00e7erisinden harl\u0131 bir soluk y\u00fckseldi:<\/p>\n

-Tamam o\u011ful!<\/p>\n

Samet ak\u00fclerin kablolar\u0131n\u0131 nihayet ba\u011flayabilmi\u015fti. Evde, as\u0131rl\u0131k \u00e7am a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne as\u0131l\u0131 duran iki ampul birden yan\u0131verdi. \u0130\u00e7erdeki harl\u0131 solu\u011fun sahibi mutluluktan \u00e7ok endi\u015feye yak\u0131n bir heyecan duydu. Bu yalanc\u0131 ayd\u0131nl\u0131k onu \u00fcrpertmi\u015fti. Da\u011f sessizli\u011finde yank\u0131lanan \u00e7\u0131t\u0131rt\u0131larla yanan odunlara, oca\u011fa biraz daha sokuldu. Samet, so\u011fuktan k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f yanaklar\u0131na y\u00fcr\u00fcyen bir i\u015f becermenin g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyi\u015fiyle kap\u0131y\u0131 aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda anas\u0131n\u0131n huzursuzlu\u011funu hemen anlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Ne oldu ana?<\/p>\n

– Bu i\u015f pek olmad\u0131 sanki o\u011ful.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclay Ana, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 evin tavan\u0131nda as\u0131l\u0131 duran lambaya \u00e7evirip ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131. Tepedeki maden ocaklar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret etti.<\/p>\n

-Kar\u015f\u0131ki alt\u0131nc\u0131lar\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131na benziyor.<\/p>\n

-Olur mu ana? Gaz almaya param\u0131z yetmez oldu art\u0131k l\u00fck\u00fcse. Fena m\u0131 ne g\u00fczel ayd\u0131nlad\u0131k i\u015fte?<\/p>\n

-Hakl\u0131s\u0131n o\u011flum, sen de hakl\u0131s\u0131n.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclay Ana hi\u00e7 elektrikli evde uyumam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcnde. Yaln\u0131z senede birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn o\u011flunun \u015fehirdeki evinde gider, hepsi birbirinin ayn\u0131 binalar\u0131, arabalar\u0131, insanlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fck\u00e7e i\u00e7i s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r, ke\u00e7ilerinin ba\u015f\u0131na evine d\u00f6nmek i\u00e7in utana s\u0131k\u0131la Samet’i s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r dururdu. Samet anas\u0131n\u0131n bu haline dayanamaz onu geriye, evine g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr; annesinin daha yola koyulur koyulmaz gev\u015feyip yumu\u015famaya ba\u015flayan y\u00fcz hatlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fck\u00e7e kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z\u0131n genceldi\u011fini hissederdi. G\u00fclay Ana, koya\u011f\u0131n menderesli yollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u015f\u0131p vadinin en y\u00fcksek yerinde Koca Me\u015fe’nin biti\u015fi\u011findeki evine yakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a, k\u00f6kten dallara y\u00fcr\u00fcyen \u00f6zsu gibi k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r olurdu. Yuvas\u0131na kavu\u015ftu\u011funda ilk i\u015f ke\u00e7ilerine bakar. Hastalanan, yavrulayan var m\u0131 diye dikkatle s\u00fczerdi a\u011f\u0131l\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir gece yine Samet anas\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6yle eve b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 da, tam arabas\u0131na binip d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f yoluna koyulacakken G\u00fclay Ana’n\u0131n a\u011f\u0131ldan y\u00fckselen \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla gerisingeri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n

-Sameeet!<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131n\u0131n sesi bir \u0131sl\u0131k olup kayd\u0131 gitti gecenin i\u00e7inden. Samet tela\u015fla a\u011f\u0131l\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Ne var ana? Ne oldu?<\/p>\n

-Ko\u015f, bana ya\u011f getir. O\u011flak ters d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f. Zeliha do\u011furam\u0131yor.<\/p>\n

Samet’in eli aya\u011f\u0131na doland\u0131. G\u00fclay Ana, bir eliyle Zeliha’n\u0131n sa\u011fr\u0131s\u0131na s\u0131vazl\u0131yor; bir eliyle zavall\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131n haki ye\u015fil g\u00f6zlerinden s\u00fczelen ya\u015flar\u0131 siliyordu. G\u00fclay Ana’n\u0131n \u00f6yle vakur bir duru\u015fu vard\u0131 ki bir s\u00fcre sonra ac\u0131dan tepinen Zeliha sakinledi, dizlerinin derman\u0131 kesilmi\u015f, yere \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcvermi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Samet bu aral\u0131k gitti k\u00fcp\u00fcn i\u00e7inden bir kap zeytinya\u011f\u0131 al\u0131p getirdi. G\u00fclay Ana ellerini ovu\u015ftura ovu\u015ftra zeytinya\u011f\u0131na bulad\u0131. Sonra kendinden emin, a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r dald\u0131rd\u0131 ellerini Zeliha’n\u0131n rahmine. “O\u011flak ters d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f.” dedi yine s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131yla, sonra y\u00fcz\u00fc yava\u015f yava\u015f ayd\u0131nland\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Tuttum!<\/p>\n

O\u011fla\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndan tutup yava\u015f yava\u015f d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. G\u00fclay Ana yavruyu ellerine ald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yavrunun \u00fcst\u00fcnden dumanlar t\u00fct\u00fcyordu. Samet’den yana d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Buza\u011f\u0131y\u0131 Samet’e g\u00f6sterirken y\u00fcz\u00fc renk renk olmu\u015f, menevi\u015flenmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Samet, anas\u0131n\u0131n o halini hi\u00e7 unutam\u0131yordu. Kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z nas\u0131l da sevinmi\u015fti. Babas\u0131 \u00f6leli ilk kez b\u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu onu. Birka\u00e7 hafta sonra tekrar anas\u0131n\u0131n ziyaretine geldi\u011finde onu hala o geceki heyecanl\u0131, mutlu haliyle Koca Me\u015fe’nin alt\u0131nda oturmu\u015f, ke\u00e7ilerle beraber dinlenirken buldu. Sabah\u0131n ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131ndan beri i\u015fleyen bedenine s\u00fct liman bir denizin durgunlu\u011fu \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Gitti anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na elini \u00f6pt\u00fc, oturdu.<\/p>\n

\u00a0“<\/strong>Bu a\u011fa\u00e7 yuvam\u0131z.” dedi anas\u0131 s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 dayad\u0131\u011f\u0131 me\u015fenin g\u00f6vdesiyle biraz daha b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015ferek. \u00d6n\u00fcndeki az\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inden biraz yufka biraz ke\u00e7i peyniri uzatt\u0131 Samet’e. Bir yandan onunla konu\u015fuyor, g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine bak\u0131yor; bir yandan da s\u00fcrekli ke\u00e7ileri yokluyordu. Bulutlara bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda i\u00e7indeki ya\u011fmuru g\u00f6ren birinin bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131yd\u0131 bunlar. G\u00fclay Ana s\u00fcr\u00fcdeki her \u015feyi g\u00f6r\u00fcyor en ufak hareketi bile ka\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131yordu. Bir aral\u0131k ke\u00e7ilerden birka\u00e7\u0131 yandaki ba\u011fa girmeye yeltenecek oldu. Hemen do\u011frulup kesti \u00f6nlerini. Daha o\u011flu gidi\u015fini anlamadan geri gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Samet anas\u0131n\u0131n cevab\u0131ndan korkar bir tedirginlikle a\u011fz\u0131ndaki baklay\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Ana ne zaman kesece\u011fiz bu a\u011fac\u0131? Bak k\u0131\u015f geliyor.<\/p>\n

Beriki hi\u00e7 oral\u0131 de\u011fildi. Sanki Samet bu soruyu hi\u00e7 sormam\u0131\u015f gibi cevap verdi.<\/p>\n

-Bu a\u011fac\u0131n tohumunun hikayesini bilir misin? Bir sincab\u0131n r\u0131zk\u0131d\u0131r bu a\u011fa\u00e7. Nenem anlat\u0131rd\u0131 bana o g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f. Bir sincap umufak elleriyle topra\u011f\u0131 e\u015feleyip koymu\u015f tohumu. Sonra yerim diye herhalde ya unutmu\u015f garip.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclay Ana’n\u0131n sesinde, hareketlerinde bir masal anlat\u0131c\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n edas\u0131 vard\u0131. Sincab\u0131 anlatm\u0131yordu da o oluyordu b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

-Her \u015feyin ge\u00e7mi\u015fini bileceksin o\u011ful. Bilmesen de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcneceksin. Senden \u00f6nce kimlerin eme\u011fi var bast\u0131\u011f\u0131n toprakta, i\u00e7ti\u011fin suda.<\/p>\n

-O devirler ge\u00e7ti art\u0131k ana. Art\u0131k kimsenin durup bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye vakti yok. Kesiverelim i\u015fte. Bu sene k\u0131\u015f sert ge\u00e7ecek diyor televizyonlarda. Senin yakacak odunun yok do\u011fru d\u00fcr\u00fcst.<\/p>\n

Bir korku sarsalad\u0131 G\u00fclay Ana’n\u0131n i\u00e7ini. Yakla\u015fan kara k\u0131\u015f\u0131n de\u011fil, yiten devrinin \u00fcrpertisiydi duydu\u011fu. Derin bir nefes ald\u0131. Daha vermeden konu\u015fmaya devam etti:<\/p>\n

-Olmaz! Ben kimsenin r\u0131zk\u0131na el uzatmam!<\/p>\n

O\u011flu anas\u0131n\u0131n inad\u0131n\u0131 manas\u0131z buluyor, biraz daha konu\u015fuverseler ikna olacak diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu:<\/p>\n

-Eskiden palamuttan boya yaparlarken yine iyiydi. Para ederdi de satar para kazan\u0131rd\u0131k meyvesinden. \u015eimdi \u015fu yeni boyalar \u00e7\u0131kal\u0131 para da etmez oldu art\u0131k. Ne faydas\u0131 var \u015fu a\u011fac\u0131n?<\/p>\n

-Olmaz!<\/p>\n

Diye \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131 tekrar.<\/p>\n

-Bu me\u015fe olmasa ben neyin alt\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131r\u0131m civciv s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131nda ke\u00e7iler nerde nefes al\u0131r? Sonra nerede dam bulurum ba\u015f\u0131ma ya\u011fmurlarda ke\u00e7ileri g\u00fcderken? Kimle konu\u015furum, dertle\u015firim \u015fu da\u011f ba\u015f\u0131nda. Eskiden yine baban vard\u0131…<\/p>\n

Derken kocaman yutkundu. O an Samet’in de bo\u011faz\u0131na bir ta\u015f oturuverdi.<\/p>\n

-Bu a\u011fac\u0131 yine kesecek oldulard\u0131 da k\u00f6ydekiler, baban bir hafta alt\u0131nda yat\u0131p izin istedi Koca Me\u015fe’den.<\/p>\n

-Ee ne oldu sonra?<\/p>\n

-Eesimi var o\u011flum? Baban\u0131n da me\u015fenin de g\u00f6nl\u00fc yoktu bu i\u015fe.<\/p>\n

Samet anas\u0131n\u0131n her s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tutard\u0131. Tutard\u0131 ya bu s\u00f6yledikleri ona g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00e7 geliyordu. Anam iyice ya\u015fland\u0131 art\u0131k diye ge\u00e7iriyordu i\u00e7inden. G\u00f6nl\u00fc olsun vars\u0131n. Babam\u0131n da g\u00f6nl\u00fc yokmu\u015f hem bu i\u015fte.<\/p>\n

-Bak Samet. Bak, \u015fu bizim Zeliha’n\u0131n o\u011fla\u011f\u0131na. Nas\u0131l da al\u0131\u015f\u0131verdi da\u011flara.<\/p>\n

-Evet ana. \u00c7abuk al\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

O\u011flak, sarp kayalar\u0131n tepelerine v\u00fccudunda en ufak bir titreme bile olmadan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor, yaln\u0131z arada bir d\u00f6n\u00fcp anas\u0131na bak\u0131yordu. Onlar\u0131 izlerken G\u00fclay Ana’n\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden fazlas\u0131na bakan bir neslin sular\u0131 yeniden dalgaland\u0131:<\/p>\n

-Her ke\u00e7inin i\u00e7inde bir da\u011f vard\u0131r o\u011ful. Sen \u015fimdi diyorsun ya keselim \u015fu me\u015feyi odun edelim diye. \u0130\u015fte o zaman da\u011f \u00f6l\u00fcr. Ke\u00e7iler, zeytinler, nehirler, ormanlar \u00f6l\u00fcr bu me\u015fe olmasa. Ben \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcm o\u011flum. Biz, hepimiz \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcz.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131: Kemal Kol\u00e7ak<\/p>\n

Foto\u011fraf: \u00a9 Mahmut Koya\u015f<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00a0 \u0130\u00e7inde da\u011f olanlara. Yaln\u0131z y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n ayd\u0131nlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yeni ay gecesinde, Koca Me\u015fe tepesinin yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 c\u0131l\u0131z bir beyaz \u0131\u015f\u0131k bozdu. Belli belirsiz ayd\u0131nlanan evin i\u00e7erisinden harl\u0131 bir soluk y\u00fckseldi: -Tamam o\u011ful! Samet ak\u00fclerin kablolar\u0131n\u0131 nihayet ba\u011flayabilmi\u015fti. Evde, as\u0131rl\u0131k \u00e7am a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne as\u0131l\u0131 duran iki ampul birden yan\u0131verdi. \u0130\u00e7erdeki harl\u0131 solu\u011fun sahibi mutluluktan \u00e7ok endi\u015feye yak\u0131n […]<\/p>\n

Daha Fazlas\u0131n\u0131 Oku… from Ana<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":16,"featured_media":4492,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"_uag_custom_page_level_css":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[561],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4491","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-doga-okulu"],"acf":[],"uagb_featured_image_src":{"full":false,"thumbnail":false,"medium":false,"medium_large":false,"large":false,"1536x1536":false,"2048x2048":false},"uagb_author_info":{"display_name":"burak.ozkirli","author_link":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/author\/burak-ozkirli\/"},"uagb_comment_info":0,"uagb_excerpt":"\u00a0 \u0130\u00e7inde da\u011f olanlara. Yaln\u0131z y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n ayd\u0131nlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yeni ay gecesinde, Koca Me\u015fe tepesinin yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 c\u0131l\u0131z bir beyaz \u0131\u015f\u0131k bozdu. Belli belirsiz ayd\u0131nlanan evin i\u00e7erisinden harl\u0131 bir soluk y\u00fckseldi: -Tamam o\u011ful! Samet ak\u00fclerin kablolar\u0131n\u0131 nihayet ba\u011flayabilmi\u015fti. Evde, as\u0131rl\u0131k \u00e7am a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne as\u0131l\u0131 duran iki ampul birden yan\u0131verdi. \u0130\u00e7erdeki harl\u0131 solu\u011fun sahibi mutluluktan \u00e7ok endi\u015feye yak\u0131n…","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4491","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/16"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4491"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4491\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4491"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4491"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dogadernegi.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4491"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}